Nimzo
I am currently an elder and visit here regularly.... Why??? Because something is major wrong with the WTBTS.
All of the changes - flashes of light recently and just about to be published are going to make many question there faith. I was brought up in the truth and this is the first time I have ever started to question it - it all falls to pieces when you start your own research.
The fact you are here means you have questions or doubts. Its hard, oh so hard to question life long beliefs. Can I make a recommendation - Wikipedia Jehovahs WItnesses. The society post info on there, but so do others. very factual, honest look at the org. Give it a look.
The Scotsman